to weed or not to weed….
We all know that weed gets you high. But I dont think that many of us have really ever thought throught the process of what ’high’ is and what other psycotropic effects weed can have. I had a reason this morning to work through at least one of those.
Dreams.
I have been plagued for the last, I would say, 6 years with dreams that are SO real that they affected me during my waking hours. I dont mean, ’Man, that was an odd dream’. I’m talking about dreams that are so real and so intense that they mess up my decision making about certain things as well as how I perceive my little section of reality. I can attribute a large part of the downfall of my marriage to these. No, really. I would have nightmares, I guess thats the correct word, that would CONVINCE me that something was going on behind my back, or that I was failing in one way or another, etc. I would wake up with SUCH a conviction about what I had dreamed that I would confront people about what I now thought was happening. In some cases it was happening (thats one thing dreams are good for) and in others it couldnt be farther from the truth.
Now, I went through my divorce, and one way I helped myself with the post traumatic issues caused therein was to smoke weed before bed. Just to relax me enough to sleep well. Can you guess what happened? My dreams were supressed. Thats right. BANG, they were gone. Heres the fucked part. I didnt notice it.
Suddenly I was better rested, I was less suspicious about people and events and I was generally in a good mood (the next day, not just when I was actually high). I just assumed that getting out of my marriage and getting settled into single life was letting me feel better. Not so much. I have on two occasions (last night and one night about a week ago) not smoked any pot. On BOTH of thsoe occasions I had violently lucid dreams, and got a little concernec about the topics in those dreams.
Has anyone had experiences like this? I would love to hear about them. But please dont just send me “I luv to be high!! Its so greatness!!” Lets try to think about the third grade level and really analize why this phenomenon might occur.
Awaiting your answers….
MC
August 21, 2008 at 3:58 am
I won’t say that my dreams are Lucid to the point where i wake up and i’m like yes, how did that just happen, but sometimes i get confused as i just have really random and broad dreams, so sometimes very normal things take place in my dreams and i confuse them with reality. I mean, i generally figure it out pretty quick, but everyone once in awhile i’ll bring something up and some one will be lie aahh?? that didn’t happen, so those are always fun situations. THAT SAID, i will say i probably started smoking for the wrong reason, being a break-up, but whatever, it got me to eat again, got me to sleep again, and allowed me to calm down through the day/night. As far as the dreams go, its pretty funny, after i smoke, or the next day, or ensuing week, i dream A LOT, but my dreams are so ridiculous, that i have zero trouble realizing they are just dreams.