Ramblings of a madman

Hey there everybody. Yes, I know, its much more convenient for you to be able to read all this on Myspace. Well, myspace is a PITA for blogs. Ill let you all know when I post something via bulliten so you can come check it out. If you are new here, I would suggest you hit the link on the right for”archive”. Not the one that says “Archives”, but the one under “Categories. After you read those (back to front of course, newest is posted at the front) you can start reading through the “Uncategorized”. I may rearrange these one day when Im not sitting at work…

About me. I actually think Im going to keep this kinda ‘confidential’. I dont care who reads it or comments on it, but I dont know if I really want there to be a relation to my ‘real life’… We’ll see. This was my original starting post, so here ya go…

January 13, 2007 – Saturday

The good, the bad and well….
Category: Life

Im doubting that anyone could care less about this blog, but im going to make a rambling run at this anyway. First, im going to set myself some ground rules.

1. This blog will ALWAYS be more or less stream of consciousness. I want this to be a place I can just let go.
2. If you dont agree with me, do agree, or just have something to say I’ll listen. I might not care, but I’ll read it.
3. This will probably never be a technically sophisticated site, just because I have to do tech crap all day, and really dont feel like doing it here as well.
4. all rules are subject to change because… well… because they are my rules.

I guess the easiest place to start is the begining. But that would be a book in itself, and a lot of people would probably not appreciate me spewing their histories and personal lives on MySpace. So, we will start with the current situation i find myself in, New Batchelorhood. (oh yeah, and bad spelling, grammar, etc are to be expected since a lot of these will probably be drunken rants).

I dont want to get into the specifics of how, when or why I have gotten a divorce. Its not that I have a problem with the situation, its just well I dont really know you that well. What I do want to get into this evening is how odd it is being out in the world on my own. Since High School, I have been with someone at all times. Yeah, dont say it. So, now that I have been removed from high school since 1995, i am at last alone. And its a very daunting task. Not the normal day in day out mundane tasks like laundry, housework, and making sure the bills are paid, but more along the lines of learning to live with yourself. I have recently had the mild epiffany that I had no idea who i am. I know what role I played in my relationship with my wife, family and coworkers, but it seems to be a different ballgame entirely to live alone and have to actually (yeah this is going to be corny) be your own firend. Its a good thing then I guess that I really seem to like myself. (minds out of the gutter please)

Of course the amount of happiness to be found in being alone is inversely proportional to the amount of time you have to dedicate to the things you dont necessarily want to do. (read it again, and it will make sense) Oh, and since this is a stream if consiousness blog… I HATE COMCAST COMMERCIALS!!! okay, Im back, and im getting tired. The bottle of Cantina Zaccagnini is starting to do its job.More tomorrow. Maybe.

Night all.